Meditation 6: “I threw a stone…”

Meditation 6: “I threw a stone…”

The Rev’d Jan Crombie

Preamble Jan Crombie, like all of us, has several identities – depending on who is asking!  She is wife, lover of dogs, mother of three adult children, passionate about baptism and coffee, priest, relies on conversation and dialogue with others to find her own way and the way of others, struggles to be a truth teller, and feels at home in the Anglican Church in its identity of openness and exploration for meaning.Jan was ordained priest in 2000, spent ten years as a parish priest in 2 parishes, and is now seconded into a strategy/ministry development job for a few years, in “central office”.  It still means she can get out and about to be conversing and dialoguing with people in that ‘truth search’, so she is happy.
Focus exercise Find a stone.Hold the stone.Slowly close your senses down to nothing but the stone.I weave a silence on to my lips

I weave a silence into my mind

I weave a silence within my heart

I close my ears to distractions

I close my eyes to attractions

I close my heart to temptations   (David Adam)

You are aware of the stillness; the stillness of the stone in the stillness of your hand.

You are preparing to listen to the Word.  Read the Gospel passage through first, slowly.  Then read again, out loud, slowly dropping each word like a stone into a pool.  Be conscious of which word(s), images, speak to you today.

Bible reading : John 8: 2-8  Early in the morning he came again to the temple. All the people came to him and he sat down and began to teach them. The scribes and the Pharisees brought a woman who had been caught in adultery; and making her stand before all of them, they said to him, ‘Teacher, this woman was caught in the very act of committing adultery. Now in the law Moses commanded us to stone such women. Now what do you say?’ They said this to test him, so that they might have some charge to bring against him. Jesus bent down and wrote with his finger on the ground. 7When they kept on questioning him, he straightened up and said to them, ‘Let anyone among you who is without sin be the first to throw a stone at her.’ And once again he bent down and wrote on the ground.
Personal story There was a night I threw a stone at God.  I did.  It was a Good Friday.  I had been part of a startling, sobering, wonderful liturgy which involved rose petals and stones.  The soft beauty of colour, the hard truth of the other. I was four months away from the Discernment Conference that I knew would change my life, the lives of my most loved ones, and the life of the church.  I was anguished… I do not need to be ordained to love and be your church, God.  This was, and had been, my main struggle in my understanding of the highest ordination, my baptism.  You are very male tonight God, you are not listening.  And so I threw my Good Friday stone at God. And it turned into a rose.
Guided reflection
  • Think of a time when you have been confronted by “the raw you” of you.
  • Try and be in touch with that “you” now; and reflect on the things you must strip away to expose that rawness.
  • Turn and face this real you – and say to God “here I am”.  And rejoice and give thanks for the giftedness of who you are, made in the very image of God.  Rejoice and give thanks that it is that of you that God really wants.
  •  Pray now for Christ’s wisdom, and call, to use who you are for him.  Pray now for the church, for the same discernment.  Pray now for others, that they also will find their own truth in Christ’s truth.

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